Movie Gaga

So yesterday was almost the most tiring day I've ever lived. Woke up, prepare for school, school, more school, cineleasure and vivo. Caught two movies in a day. Not bad for a freshie! =) Not to say I haven been going to the movies for years and that I got active back just recently. And for all those years I've been missing out, that makes me a semi-pro pirate! Hi ho! Ha ha ha ha ha...

But hey! Pirate no more! ;)



Caught X-files which nearly, just nearly put me to sleep. It pretty darn slow a story and that it kept the audience hanging in doubts. But what's worst is catching a movie you watched twice in cinema! That not only nearly put me to sleep, but it put me to snore! Nah... I cant snore no matter how hard I ttry too. Not pig enouugh.

Bridging the Gap

4 days already and its not working out between me and mom. Pointless to be moving and progressing if mom is as good as gone. Ah well... Rob gave me an offer. Obviously, judging from the person I m, I would have to give that a pass and that is to reject his. Independance makes 80% of me so know that. =)

Anywho, I m still contemplating on whether or not I should go to Aussie. Financing it is a big pain whilst to endure all sh*t and hicking up with mom and dad is another. That is one to think and another to act.

Peace be to Che Guavera.


Loving life not!
Kai

Foreign Country

Yesterday was like living in a foreign country where language was a barrier and culture was a joke. Everyone at home totally ignored me! It felt as thought I wasnt there yet still breathing. Haikal and another one of Khairun's friend was having dinner when I came home and that they acknowledge my present and since then I was good as not being there. Darn be to everyone even me!

Kept my cool and did my own stuff. Work was not that of a pain yesterday. After Fann left, I did seriously nothing! Just surfing and updating the blog.Well I went in a switch off mode as soon as Mr.Rat start rambbling about VB. (Totally Random!)

Just emailed Rob about me not being able to visit him this august and I seriously feel bad and lousy. So lousy that all i want to do is to just sit and stare in blank space for a good 10 minutes or even more.

Sorry Rob......... So sorrry.......... =(

MOS

Went MOS with Mable,Madu,Don&Shawn. It was alright. Not thattttt interesting just that it was overcrowded and stuffy plus we can hardly breath and was perspiring like it rained inside! Btw, mom have no idea about my doings because I think,just think, she couldn't care less. Anyway, as I was saying, yea Mos was quite a drag mainly because we did not have great company and there were not many of us. Not saying that it was bad but it could get better.

The house music was okay. Most of the songs played were RnB and some random s**t that I hardly know. But who am I to please? So long the majority enjoy it and get drunk even before drinking, that should do all the trick! Saw that stupit dude who came to SVC earlier that day asking me form my number,dancing at the main dancefloor platform so close to me. Darn thing was he still have the freaking cheek to look and smile at me!! I remembered he came into my workplace,said I smiled to him and did the first move when all I did was look at him in disbelieve and cursing him in my heart for even looking for me. Well at MOS I totally acted like a biatch and ignored him. I danced with my friends and totally and seriously acting like a biatch. I cant help but repeat what I just said!

So got home and attended a lecture that lasted 1 and a half hour! I learn nothing anyway. More like left in right out! hehe

I m feeeling shit now so yea. Well till then.


Mommy hates moi!

Love mommy

Not Welcome

It is devastating to know people whom you cherish,
Turn their back on you,
Knowing that it is the only solution to make you repent.
It is not known to them,
That their actions just put matter to the worst.

The struggle the pain and the sorrow,
Could never be felt by anyone but yourself,
I wish they knew what I am going through.
But they are only human not to.
Hence the fighting prolong on my own.

From dust till dawn I figured my way,
Only to realise the only way out was to sacrifice what I cherish.
Both pairs of their tired eyes,
Thought me to think,
God how much I owed them.

My very first cry was nothing but a curse,
To the misery of my parent's life.
I was not welcome.
I was not welcome.
It was not suppose to be me.

Along came my brother.
The issues begins.
Outcast I m,
From all the care I need.
From all the love I desire.

All the curfew imposed,
All the naggings told,
Was just a mare responsibility,
Never because of love.
But a chore instead.

Tried being liberal,
Tried being nice,
Tried being an angle,
But fell after it went unnotice
After it went unappreciated.

So I turned my back on them,
They turned their back on mine.
We both played the same game,
Hoping and praying for fate to bring us apart
Hoping and praying that we will just turn invisible.